Too far
by Kay Rob
God damn it.
I was so close to death this week.
One of my best friends lost their partner and lover in life.
This is someone who has lived their life so closeted,
Not even their closest friends knew they were gay.
So I’ve seen a dead body and I’m helping a friend grieve.
I’ve never really told anyone about how death affects me.
I stay strong for the ones I love.
But what if I’m not strong enough to handle the reality of what I’ve seen?
God fucking damn it.
Searching for Bliss 
Stay strong. Your friends will appreciate and heal from your strength.
I hope so! I got to spend some time with them tonight, and it was very healing. There were some tears, but mostly laughter and good memories. Thank you so much for commenting!